Hello again!

Hi everyone!
I'm finally back after a longgg break. It's been three years and I wonder if anyone still visits my blog. HAHA. It doesn't matter anyway, just wanna track down what happened throughout these years. I re-read all my old posts and dang it! Three years passed just in a flash. A lot actually happened and I don't know how I should start.

Gonna edit this post soon if I have time. Meanwhile, I need to sleep cause it's late. Goodnightt!

The art of self-acceptance

They say in order to be loved, you should first love yourself.
And so, this is one of my 2017 resolutions; self-acceptance. Perhaps this is something easy and is not even essential for some people, but for me this might be the vital key to a better quality of life. Doesn't mean I don't love myself. I do, but question is, to what extent?
The fact is, feeling good with all my flaws and keep telling myself "it's okay, you're doing good enough" while I'm actually not isn't easy at all. But trying to repeteadly fix myself isn't necessarily easy too. This often causes me to develop a sense of inferiority which is very unhealthy and I am finding ways to overcome it. And again they say, there's no amount of self-improvement can make up for any lack of self-acceptance. Also I don't wanna keep beating myself up for making mistakes. So I'm trying to love myself, for every flaw and every messy trait I have, one at a time. This might be a very long journey, or even a journey with no finish line but I am willing to try.

PSPO Batch 14

23.11.2016
It's been exactly a year since I first met these buddies. Time surely flies and here comes the time when we need to bid good bye to one another. Well, it's not literally a good bye, but more to "see you again when I see you". Even so, I still cried a river during the farewell. I just couldn't stop myself and I'm very sure I'll miss them dearly.
Throughout this year, I realised that I change a lot and they are definitely a part of my change. They played an important role in the process and I want them to know. So I deliberately point this out during the testimonial session in the closing class to thank them. I clearly remember how insignificant I felt I was a year ago. It was with their supportive help I could push myself beyond my limit and create a better version of myself. I am very glad we met and I hope you guys succeed in whatever you do. God bless!



Fourteen isn't merely a number for me now. It holds meanings only us can decipher.
Thank you guys for showering me with love and curiosity. Thank you for always giving me chances to speak out what's inside my mind. Thank you for constantly capturing my various pose of sleeping in class or even when we travelled (I have never known I actually look that ugly while sleeping HAHA). Thank you for adding remarkable suffixes to my nickname. Thank you for hugging me tight when I cried eventhough my cry cried you guys harder. Thank you for taking good care of me everytime we're going out and shouting out for me everytime I was not at sight. Thank you for cheering me up when I was down, especially during my first presentation last year which was not as good as I expected.Thank you for making me laugh, then cry because of laughing too hard, then laugh again because of crying when laughing.
In conclusion, thank you guys for inspiring me. You guys are awesome!

Barefoot Cinderella

She survived the surgery. I knew she would and I am very thankful she did.
Going under a knife is never easy, and so is the recovery. Everything isn't perfect immediately after the surgery but I hope everything goes well and her quality of life will be improved in accordance with this surgery.
Although there's nothing much I can help at the moment, my prayers are always with her. So please recover real soon, buddy! I can't wait to bother you once you are back and I can't wait to see you live the life you've always been longing for, without being discouraged any longer. You deserve a normal and happy life!

Another random post

What's the secret of life?
Be grateful.
Wrong.
Why? That's my version.
People change people. Either you change them or they change you. That's the scariest secret.

How much have you lost in life?
A lot. Countless things in life
Such as?
Friends, trust, chances, time
So did you calculate how much lesson you have gained from your loss? Perhaps when you do really count, what you've gained is actually more than the loss itself.


Alright. Daphne is a genius. I never knew my student is this mature to ask about those questions and her answers surprised me even more.
Age doesn't define maturity. Couldn't agree more!

If I may

I'm frequently trapped in places where I feel so small and so insignificant, where everyone is growing rapidly while I'm still stuck, where others seem to know very well what they are doing in life while I am still figuring out what to do.
There are certain times in life when I feel like I'm not good enough and I don't deserve what I have.
But just for once, I don't wanna blame myself. Just for once, I don't wanna doubt myself.
Simply because I need to be saved from myself and my own thoughts.

Some things don't merely work out the way you wanted it to be. However, when you try to look around closely, you'll realize that things aren't bad at all.