Random thoughts

We are living in a world where everyone we meet is wearing a mask. For me, a mask is like a double-edged sword. Wearing a mask doesn't necessarily mean you are fake. A mask works as a person's self defense. Without masks, people are insecure and they feel threatened. As a matter of fact, sometimes we even create a mask to meet the masks of others. Isn't this life complicated?

Frankly speaking, I don't really mind people wearing masks as long as they don't fake their sincerity. I value people's sincerity more than anything else in this world. A mask will eventually fall off but sincerity will never. I've learned so much from experiences that the more people talk and interact with you, the more they uncover their traits and unmask themselves. The rest depends on you to decide which ones are worth your keep.

Current state of mind

I'm seriously in my worst physical condition right now. I barely have enough sleep recently because my brain won't shut down at night, causing me hours of unrest. A lot of things are occupying my mind and I don't know how to shoo them away. Perhaps I should try exhausting myself in an extreme way throughout the day because sometimes when you're tired, you just sleep straightaway without even thinking.
In the other hand, my allergies relapse again and this results in swollen and chapped lips, and it's smarting, like an open wound. It's been a while since I had my last allergy and I completely have no idea what food I consumed wrongly this time. I tried to track my food record down to search for the cause but I couldn't find anything. Usually it's shrimp, but I didn't feel like eating it unintentionally, or even intentionally.

And oh by the way, I'm officially employed for a week by now and I'm very glad to have finally started a new page, although everything in my workplace is still very new for me. I didn't know anyone there and everyone is a stranger to start with. But well, not literally everyone because it turns out that my ex-teacher is currently working there, and his desk is just right next to me. The fact that there's at least someone I know calms me down a bit. I'm never good at social interactions and this is what worries me in the beginning. I hope I'll do better in the future.

Now that one of the checkpoints has been reached, I should start planning for the next step carefully. I initially planned to continue my master study after working for a few years but let's see if I'm gonna stick to it or not. Everything can change. I guess impermanence is the only thing which is normal, isn't it?
And I hope everyone is doing great!