Some things don't merely work out the way you wanted it to be. However, when you try to look around closely, you'll realize that things aren't bad at all.

I made mistakes, too much that I keep disappointing people around me lately. It wasn't on purpose I swear and I completely have no idea what's wrong with me. People tend to have high expectations and I dont wanna blame them for it. So I adjusted, but failed.
Disappointing people disappoints me.
I am very desperate.