One of the thousand things I'm thankful for

We finally met. Yellu, Clarissa, and I. Those two are seriously the busiest people on earth. Our schedules always collide with one another's and it has always been hard for us to find a day when three of us are available upon. Yellu usually works even on Saturday and Sunday, the same thing applies to Clarissa. She has another part-time job at a radio station on weekends but only at certain hours. Despite the absence of Shella and Weni who are currently not living in town, we still try to make time for one another, at least during one's birthday.

We might not meet frequently now but they are friends that understand me the most. To be honest, I don't actually have friends that know me as well as they do. I'm a very reserved and introverted person. I usually try very hard to fit in every situation and to meet other's expectation while interacting, but it's kinda different with them. I don't need to try that hard. We just fit and I unconsciously disclose things to them, which is rare. I don't usually do self disclosure, I find it awkward and I don't know how to deal with people's responses after that. However, they're just different. Probably because we share a lot of similarities. Most of us are a bit workaholic and have a hidden desire not to live in our country. Well, it might sound unrealistic or stupid, but we just can't stop talking about it. Some of them wanna leave permanently, while for me since my family is the biggest issue, temporary is enough. Weni and Shella are luckier so they got to leave Medan the fastest. Weni is currently working in Singapore after she graduated and I believe she won't even have the slightest thought of returning to Medan. Meanwhile, Shella is now persuing her language study in China and hasn't decided whether to stay there working or to return back to Medan after she finishes. The rest of us have to make our own way out. Yellu is planning to take her master study overseas in 2017 and she's now preparing the stuffs she might need later and finding any possible fundings to cover her school fee and expenses. She is a very determined person and I wish she will make it. I wish I will, too, although I'm not as determined as those three.

So I constantly thank God for sending them to my life and for reminding me to dream big and work for it. Eventhough if I fail, I know the others won't. I'm quite satisfied with my current life anyway, but if I succeed in this, it's a bonus!