I have a very strange way of showing affection towards others. I don't usually show them. It's been difficult for me to be emotionally intimate with people, so I don't usually tell people the "you are so special I love you so much I'm glad to have you in my life" thing. I have problems with intimacy, to let people in, to disclose myself. I hate it the most when people say things to me in attempt to build intimacy but I dont know what to do so I say nothing instead. Relationship, in all kinds, are difficult.

I've been having this issue since I was little and people often label me as being ignorant. To be honest, I dislike it very much, the label ignorant. As a matter of fact, it's not only showing affection that I'm not good at, I'm not good at expressing myself as well. Therefore, I'm trying very hard to express myself better, or else I might go crazy of keeping everything inside. Writing, for instance, is probably one of the best ways. I'm more comfortable to express gratitute and love to people non-verbally. I'm not a good writer but I like writing journals or blog and that helps me heal a bit. Observing is another thing I'm experimenting with. By observing, you notice and take notes of the needs of people around you.
Next task for me is to find  more ways to show affection even better bcs I dont wanna lose anyone I love and care about.

Anyway, happy Valentine's day people!
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