Saturday, March 12, 2016

I am addicted

Hi again. It's March now and if you guys know me, you know I'm gonna start complaining about how fast time flies and how I didn't realize it passing. Frankly speaking, I have always been very busy with working and teaching stuffs that I often lose myself in it, so much that I also lose track of time, forget about myself and the world around me. I return to home at around nine or ten every weekday and sleep like a dead pig rightaway. The next day, I wake up to the same routines and the cycle repeats again. The question is, is busyness jeopardizing my soul?

So here I am, coming up with an idea to evaluate the way I'm living life to lead a better life.
On one side, I'm a person who loves keeping myself busy. You can say I'm addicted to it. I hate doing nothing and being unproductive. Also, it is already a habit within me. I am environmentally raised to work hard over everything. Another encouraging point is, I can be financially independent from my parents and it's an accomplishment for me. I have then shifted my aim to not just being financially independent. I wanna do more and give more. On the other side, I'm aware that we do not live fully merely by doing more or experiencing more. Quality over quantity. Moreover, my busyness often leads to exhaustion which is self-destructive. I get tired at times, too tired that my tired is tired. I know that very well but I can't seem to stop myself. I am already like a trained bull, constantly chasing over a red flag.

So the conclusion is, I'm gonna wisely and slowly switch my teaching activity in the evening into something which is not less productive than it, perhaps like taking a foreign language class. Or doing some sports since I haven't been doing sports for a long time. However, it might take some time since I still have my responsibility as a teacher, at least until my students finish this semester, so I guess this won't be accomplished in a short time. But it;s alright, I can wait until then.



Are you addicted as well?

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